Before my out-of-nowhere affection towards the song Vanilla Twilight dissolve any further (which I don’t think it’ll likely be), I deem it best I write down how I became so attached to this beautifully and carefully crafted masterpiece. =]
Strange how thing can turn around when you least expect them to be. I wasn’t a fan of this song or Owl City initially, but you never know what happens the next moment. And this song just hit home and *clicked* the next minute you’re still conscious you realized you’ve already set half foot in it. Beauty of music? Emm… At first few hearing, I thought the song is about nothing more than a funny guy trying to voice out his feeling on a broken or long-distance relationship. I was more intrigued by the meaning of the song title itself and for some reasons, I can’t help my artsy box tickling with the words in the song. After closely going through the lyric, things indeed don’t seem like as they are on the surface – just another mistake I made, all these while. So I did some research on the song.
To make long story short, Adam Young (the guy behind Owl City) apparently wrote this song for his girlfriend, who unfortunately passed away in a car crash. From what I’ve gathered, Young also suffers from insomnia, he has difficulties falling asleep like normal people do. Although I suspect the credibility of the sources, I still give it the green light partly because it did make sense, assessing from some lines in the song really suggest that the song is actually made for his dead girlfriend. =[
You’ll see why and here’s my take on the song Vanilla Twilight by Owl City:
The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake I miss you
One of the few lines that touched me the most and such a melancholic opening. If the stars would lean down and kiss you, what could it probably mean if not taking away the girl from Earth, leaving someone moments of tranquility, or perhaps in some sense, despair. Definitely not just another ordinary sweet talk that a boy would text a girl, it’s different here.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
‘Cause I’ll doze off safe and soundly
But I’ll miss your arms around me
“…heavy dose of atmosphere” could suggests the boy is hoping for a retreat from reality – he finds it hard to accept that someone he used to slept with (loved) left him and he feels no sense of security when she’s not around. In fact, the songwriter does suffer from insomnia and probably could only sleep well when his girlfriend is around.
I’d send a postcard to you, dear
‘Cause I wish you were here
Notice the “I’d (I Would)”? He wanted to send a postcard to her, but he knew he can’t. A postcard is a form of missing someone who is far away. He misses the girl so much and if the girl was still living somewhere on Earth, he knows where he should and will send the postcard, but NOT when the girl is somewhere at the afterlife. ='[
I’ll watch the night turn light blue
But it’s not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The boy and the girl might have had the habit or inclination of watching the night sky together while closely exchanging murmur to the each other.
The silence isn’t so bad
‘Til I look at my hands and feel sad
‘Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
He tries to convince himself that he can get on but it only lasts for a fleeting moment and he starts to miss her again. Another wonderfully crafted lines that says it all – in a hopeless yet sorrowful manner.
I’ll find repose in new ways
Though I haven’t slept in two days
‘Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I’ll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you
I don’t feel so alone
The boy knows he has to get back on track sooner or later, but “cold nostalgia” always has a place in his heart and he can’t help but influenced by the affectionate feeling he had for the past. What actually does “Vanilla Twilight” means? I found myself pondering the basic question from the beginning until now. I’m going to blend them down to three anyway. So:
1. It could be simply a tender name or a quality (twilight soaked with vanilla) that the boy and the girl used to shared and valued
2. Vanilla is viewed as something that is inviting (perhaps twilight soaked with vanilla led the songwriter thought of their situation, hence the title “Vanilla Twilight”)
3. A beautiful tale in the past about a dying young couple led to the existence of vanilla orchid in Mexico where the Aztecs lived. Since then, the Aztecs regard the plant as a symbol of strength (“…drenched in vanilla twilight” kind of indicates when the boy was surrounded by vanilla twilight it gives the boy the courage and it makes the boy feels better)
As many times as I blink I’ll think of you tonight
I’ll think of you tonight
My favourite line. As the songwriter is insomniac (he wishes to sleep soundly but he couldn’t do that) he’ll think of her whenever he closes his eyes.
When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I’ll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I’ll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won’t forget you
Here’s another amazing lines. The boy remains sanguine about the way he’s dealing with the issue. With the right amount of time, the boy will finally offload things he has been shouldering all the while and move on again. “And heavy wings grow lighter” on another note could also signifies his dead girlfriend is slowly becoming an angel. He’ll never forget the angel he used to loved. =[
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past
I’d whisper in your ear
“Oh, darling I wish you were here”
The final lines are echoes of the entire sad story, which is soon intensified by a cozy melody that plays all the way to the end of the song, in my opinion. That melody just play automatically in your mind isn’t it?
That’s it basically, the story behind the song just snaps well with the lyric. That just explained why the hell in this world is this particular song really a something. Everybody is subjected to their own opinion. While you might not agree with what I say, you can’t deny that this is one delicate and miraculous song ever produced. Not forgetting, all shall be well, Jack shall have Jill.
***Do you know what is the best part about music? When you’re able to interpret the meaning of the song, relate it to your(our) life and when you can’t pause from listening to it, that’s music.***